I don’t know where I left off, I don’t know where to begin. It’s fun here, I LOVE it here, but I miss home. This is the first time the people here have annoyed me, the first time I’ve wished I was home. I think I tried to run away from my problems, I thought leaving my dumb little town would solve everything… it obviously has not. Running away doesn’t work. I still am thinking about all the shit I was at home, for the first month I wasn’t, but now I am. Nothing will fix my problems but me, because I am the own cause of my problems.
Do not get me wrong, this is an amazing experience, I love every minute I am here. I just have come to realize that nothing is the way it seems. This school is not this fantasy resort vacation. It basically is, but in reality, there are cliches, there is drama, it never goes away. Anything you run from will catch up to you. It is inevitable.
Of course the one kid I like is American, not australian, and as usual, is way out of my reach. Like I said, I thought this would be a magical land, and it is, but not in the sense of friends, love, and all that shit.
Hahahah basically…. I love my life here down under, I miss home, I miss my friends who understand me, and I miss that sense of normal.It’s hard to explain and put into words… Just know I love it here, i would recommend it to ANYONE, I would love to travel the world again and again, but just know, it is not a true escape, you will never get away from your mind.
